Lives in Review

The past couple of weeks have been a whirl-wind. Zac and I had a fabulous weekend that was kid free. We were in Dallas for a company weekend with Zac's company. Our children were with their grandparents and we spent two days with fabulous men and women who have wonderful values, loving hearts, and great faith. It was so re energizing for both of us with only one exception.



The first week of July Zac's grandfather became more sick than usual. As time went on it was obvious that he was not going to get better. I have not hurt for my husband that much since I watched him lose my mom. It was heart breaking. Zac's granddad was 88 years old. He got to see his grandchildren grow up. He got to see four generations from him in his great grandson. He got to see his name sake(Caleb Jonathan) and his wife's name sake(Rachel Kathleen) come into this world. He decided to go home to his wife and his savior on July 24th. Once again people have said things to us that were so wrong. They were trying to show love and support but sometimes that just goes wrong. The thing we got the most, and I even found myself thinking it, was "he lived a long life". Something mom said to me in the hospital, just two months before her death was that it doesn't matter how long someone lives you are never ready to let go. We always want more. and it is so true. It is a little different when it is your grandfather, instead of a parent or child, but loss is loss and the heart hurts.



On a happier note, my baby girl is just three short weeks from turning one. I am not prepared in any way. It seems like yesterday I was telling Zac that I was pregnant. That pregnancy couldn't go fast enough, but getting her here was a breeze and everything has moved so fast since. She, along with her brother, are the light of my life. They make me laugh everyday and I am so proud to be their mother. Rachel is everywhere. She crawls on her stomach but she is so fast I don't know why she would do anything else. She is also becoming quite the little cruiser. It felt like it took her forever to sit up and then in one day she just took off with pulling herself up and cruising around tables. I can't wait to see what she does next.

Caleb is ever changing. We continue to look for some speech therapy for him but he is already so much smarter than me I am afraid I won't stand a chance when he gets caught up. He is really big into calling people right now. So if you get a call from him just have your conversation and know that I am somewhere near by. Caleb also proves to be more and more stubborn. I wonder who he gets that from? He pretty much has the mentality that he will do what he wants to do when he wants to do it, and we can play along. If he doesn't like what we say he simply ignores us. That has been extremely frustrating but I remind myself that God made him and it is not my job to break him, but to simply mold.

The joy of raising kids, and bidding temporary good-byes